No foodSunday, July 24, 200510:20AMI don't think I'm losing that much weight but I think I am losing a little bit. Man, school is going to be here before I know it and what about my goals? I'm probably eating too much food. I did get some baby food and I'm trying to make it last but I don't knwo how long Mom is going to buy it for me. More babysitting, right? I miss that family with the violin kid; that was a good babysitting job. I wish I had a real job. So, Mom is starting to talk about going to Crossgates for school shopping soon and I'm tryijng to put it off as long as I can because I want to be smaller before I get new jeans and stuff. I'm not just eating baby food only, I"m also eating other things but not much, you know? I was thiking about the sacred heart diet. I could probably make that soup for my family and eat that for dinner and then heat the leftovers and stuff. Luckily my Mom lets me help cook so I could probably do that one. Has anyone tried it? Saturday, July 23, 20054:46PMSo lazy today! I am just mellow and relaxing. We've been having crazy storms and trees are down. We even lost power last night! Tuesday, July 19, 20058:51AMGood morning! So, I just joined that baby food diet comunity but I don't have any baby food yet, so I was just going to wait till friday and go shopping with my mom but I figure, why not start today? I don't havea job or nething so I can't get too much but I do have some money so I'm going to go to the store this morning (and burn calz on the walk!) and buy myself some! Depending on this goes with Mom on friday at the price chopper, I'm goignto either need to really find some babysitting jobs or i'll be all set if she will buy it for me. Does anyone know, is it expensive??? I guess I'll find out when I go to the store this morning. Sunday, July 17, 20058:11PMIt's been too depressing to post, but here I am again. Still trying. This would be so much easier if I could just get ahead somehow. I need a new icon. Something more positive. Sometimes I wonder if I told my Mom if she would help me or try to stop me. She's overweight (my hole family is fat) and maybe she would want to try to. Saturday, June 25, 200510:24AMSo, the new and improved me did well at dinner last night. It was pretty darn difficult because my family went out to eat and then they all decided to just order a table full of appetizers and share (brothers, ugh). So they got all this fried and fattening stuff (it was really gross - like mozz sticks, fried mushrooms, wings, blah blah blah). So while there was all this tempting food on the table (which was bad) tecnically there was nothing on my plate (which was good). so I ate all the celery and carrots from the wings plate and I had one wing and one chip from the nachos. Nobody really noticed because they were all just pigging out. My family is so overweight. It's no wonder why I am the way that I am. :( Friday, June 24, 20052:33PMHey I'm back. Im embarassed to say that I've really sucked lately. I'm fatter than ever, I'm not exersising and I just am generally lame. So I haven't wanted to come on here and see how far I had come becuase it would just point out how much I screwed up. But I'm back so that must mean that I am ready to do it for real this time! Friday, June 10, 20052:25PMHey, sorry I've been absent again. Monday, June 6, 200512:24AMSo if I had one really bad day eating-wise this weeked and one really good day does it like cancel out? lol! Saturday, June 4, 20051:39PMhey! I'm BAAACK! I'm allowed to be on the internet again now. I am so happy because I really missed reading communities and talking to my freinds. I didn't lose any weight while I was grounded but I didn't gain any either thank goodness!!!! Thursday, May 26, 20056:41AMwe're starting a new unit in class (not so much unsupervised online time for me) Tuesday, May 24, 20059:55AMGod when will summer start??? I'm so sick of all these skinny gorgeous girls with their amazing summers ahead of them. I'm going to spend mine alone in my room, as usual. I will do sit ups and work really hard and maybe when I come back to school in the fall things will be different. I wonder how much wieght I can lose before september??? I lost 7 lbs. my first month so maybe if I keep that up I can be thin by fall!!! That would be amazing. I really want to feel good about myself. I've never been pretty or popular. Monday, May 23, 20059:06AMMy throat feels really sore this morning. it's like all swelled up or something like that. oh well, I don't care. I kinda like it even - it shows that I'm getting stronger. 12:08AMI can't sleep. I wish I had some oneelse's body. My stats are still so embarassing (but I've lost 7 lbz. since April!!!! Sunday, May 22, 20058:12PMI did it again. I ate dinner with my family at an Italian restaurant and after I ate I went to the bathroom and threw up. It was the kinda bathroom withno stalls, just one room, you know? So noone could hear. My eyes looked watery and I was kinda red but I used water and I brought my toothbrush in my purse so I looked okay. Anhyways....my mom still asked if I was okay when we were in the car and I said yes and that was the end of it. 11:46AMMom just made me pancakes and I ate them. I was feeling horrid and hateful and so miserable but then....I threw up. I didn't know I could do it, but I did it and I'm scared/proud. Saturday, May 21, 20057:17PMI feel really sad and depresed. I'm not loosing weight and I don't understand why not??? I felt so bad that I screwed up my no eating during the day thing. I had a little ice-cream sandwich thingy that was 120 calories. It was soy or something. That doesn't make it okay. Boo. I wonder if I'll ever have real friends or a boyfriend or a good life. I see other girls making plans with thier friends 4 the weekend and I am so jealous. No one ever sees me from the minute school ends on friday until it starts monday morning. I'm so lame. Thursday, May 19, 200510:33AMHi there, Tuesday, May 17, 20058:53AMI'm doing okay. Trying to slowly reduce my calz intake and I'm doing an exercise video. At first it felt dumb. Fancy footwork and I just looked like an elephfant in the living room. But at leasat it gets my <3 rate up and it feels like I'm getting better doign it! Navigate: (Previous 20 entries) |
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